Lost

i have never felt so lost before. i was indeed dumbfounded when the judgement was delivered by the judges in the court. neither of us have expected such an outcome. it was one of the most heartbreaking scene that i have ever seen.
i always believe there is no problem that cannot be solved in this world. as long as you are still alive, there is always hope, but what if your liberty was taken away forever despite the fact that you're innocent? at that point in time, i was struggling to compel myself to be positive and think of the bright side for such outcome. unfortunately, i couldn't.

i began to question myself.
at the end of the day, i barely got myself overwhelmed by all kinds of doubts and questions.

Justice. Does it even exist?
i used to believe that a court has always been a platform for the people to seek justice.
i have always fancy Dicey's principles, particularly the one which states that no man is above the law. this principle very well envisage equality. i was dumb enough to believe that no matter how successful you have been in your life, regardless of your status in society, every single individual is equal before the honorable court.
and despite being repeatedly told and warned of the fact that how crooked and corrupted our judiciary system is, still, i choose to believe that equality and justice still exist. at least until i saw what actually happened in court all these while.

since that day, the heartbreaking scene keeps appearing in my mind. it was such a nightmare. i always recall back how they asked us what should they do next with a pitiful sob of despair, and all we can ever answer them is to ask them to face the fact, as there is really nothing much we can do till then.i just couldn't get the picture out of my mind for now. i know this type of cases happen everyday. i am too very well aware of the fact that even up till today, there are still people who have faith in justice and are still trying their very best to prevent this type of tragedy, and hence there is no reason for me give up so easily.



人家说,走到黑暗的尽头就会有曙光.
我们的官场,应该黑到不能再黑了,为什么我还是看不到曙光？